Embracing the Unseen: A Journey from Fear to Support in Spiritual Experiences

Title: Embracing the Unseen: My Journey from Fear to Support in Spiritual Experiences

Introduction

In this episode of Becoming CarmaQuanTarot, I open up about my personal journey through the often-misunderstood world of spiritual experiences. I share how I moved from fear and constant hypervigilance into understanding, grounding, and recognizing support where I once felt threatened. My intention is to invite you to question how you view the unseen—and how much of that fear may not actually belong to the present moment.

The Beginning of My Journey

My spiritual path didn’t begin with curiosity or enlightenment—it began with fear. As a child, I wasn’t searching for gifts or abilities; I was searching for protection. I knew things before they happened, sensed things others couldn’t, and instead of that being nurtured, it was labeled as something bad… even evil.

What started as “just knowing” eventually shifted into actual experiences, and that shift changed everything. I didn’t feel empowered—I felt exposed.

Fear of the Unknown

As a teenager, my friends and I experimented with Ouija boards and séances. At the time, they thought it was harmless curiosity. But I was the one who felt it afterward.

There was a presence—persistent, loud, intrusive. My friends assumed I was moving the glass, but I was the one lying awake at night, listening to sounds no one else could hear, feeling watched, drained, and completely alone. The exhaustion wasn’t physical—it was energetic.

The Haunting Experience

One night at my grandmother’s house stands out more than the rest. During a Ouija session, something came through so strongly that fear took over. We knocked over our makeshift table in a panic and ran—only to come back later and find the board sitting perfectly in place, as if nothing had happened.

That moment stayed with me. Even after I moved away, I believed I had left that presence behind… or at least I hoped I had.

A Cycle of Fear and Prayer

When I came home from college, I realized the presence had returned. I confronted my younger brother, convinced he had opened the door again. Years later, I learned it was actually one of his friends who had been experimenting.

Prayer became my defense. But it wasn’t faith—it was survival. I built walls to keep everything out. And those walls worked… until I realized they were also trapping me inside fear. I wasn’t protected. I was just contained.

The Shift in Perspective

This episode is where I start hinting at the “light bulb moments” that changed everything—when I stopped viewing my experiences as hauntings and began recognizing them as support.

Fear, I’ve learned, often comes from unresolved trauma, not current danger. Living with unexamined spiritual experiences is like living in a house without locks—every sound feels threatening because nothing feels secure. But once you understand what’s actually happening, the fear loses its power.

Conclusion

Sharing this story isn’t about convincing anyone—it’s about reframing the narrative. What if what we label as intrusive isn’t harmful at all? What if it’s guidance we didn’t yet understand?

This journey taught me that fear doesn’t mean danger—and that support doesn’t always arrive in a form we recognize right away. When we change the story, we change the experience.